Something in my life starts going awesome, and immediately something else goes wrong. 
It’s a vicious cycle.

At least this time, I have everything I need.
I have the love I dont deserve. A gold that I didn’t earn.
There’s that fire within me that burns bright, but doesn’t hurt.  

This is me moving up.
And I’m above this everyday crap.  

I cant wait til I see Dez… I know that she’s gonna heal me. she’s the only one with that power, even if she just has to use her eyes to tell me everything I already know but need to hear. I need her to make me feel like nothing else matters but her.

I miss her.